no love boat

close your eyes and be thankful i'm never quite sure how big it will get if i stop you be grateful you'll live longer i only want to drink your blood i know you don't believe me and believe me that's good it works to my advantage that no one ever does i can feel myself sinking i'm no love boat

believe it or not this song is an attempted apology to someone who was expecting me to float on down the river and probably still is

the film i never made

i wish i had a story to tell and that you were even listening i wish i'd thought to leave this house i was born in i wish i'd run away i wish i'd seen the world i wish i'd taken chances with you

sometimes it's the things you don't do that make you what you are

happy/sadistic

i only wish that people wouldn't judge me on the trail of destruction i've left behind me if they went searching through the ashes they'd find all they needed to absolve me i only wish that people wouldn't trust me enough to allow me to raise their children for some people it just isn't enough that i won't leave them until i've killed them

ideally this song should have a girl singing it and, you know, in some ways it does